betray

betray....

how's the feeling when some one u trust betray u??
especially someone that u never guest to be a betrayer...
i got the six sense on what gonna happen..but i just try to ignore since it's out of my thought..or on another word...never think that it's gonna happen
bcoz i trust too much...i appreciate the moment together...i guest long relationship will be trustworthy..but in the end..i'm totally wrong...
i not suppose to believe on someone because i have know them for such a long time... unbelievable...she do me well....
----she is liar..bitch..she is betrayer..i hate her----

friendship= friends in the ship??

friendship...
this word just come to my mind...again..
people have many reasons to make friend..but what's yours?

me...i'm not a social-type person..i like to keep silent..woo...but i can be friend with everyone (as long as they r nice to me)...but in fact.i don't like crowd..
as a friend...i always try to take care of my friends..especially their feeling..but u know what..taking too much care of others make ur feeling hurt as well....
i try to keep comforting others feeling as long as possible..in the other word...as it's not explode the limit...coz me.. is a type of keeping-thing-on-myself...means i keep every feeling..especially uncomfortable feeling from being shout out..so that it could not hurt others feeling...as long as possible....but the most suffer of keeping this thing is me..of coz..but it's ok..coz i don't like quarrel, misunderstanding,...so better keep it..

sometimes...my try-to-ignore-thing attitude make people do fool to me...as they think that i'm always the one that can be bully all the times...damn...
well..i do this bcoz...I'M CONSIDERING THE FRIENDSHIP...i don't want to be anyone's enemy..not bcoz i coward..not bcoz i don't have the crazy, dirty word to say, not bcoz i willing to take those thing as my pleasure, and of coz not to-be-used by anyone....

well then, i consider myself as a very patient human...coz i bet if anyone in my situation...u might drive crazy..huahahah...

sometimes the or most of the times...' i don't care' quotes is very useful actually...bcoz ignoring unnecessary thing will brighting life like sunshine...epic ending..haha...


p/s don't feel to sleep yet..already 4am..continue study (hope so..:P)

this again....

god..
my bad feeling come again..it's my mom...she is sick..
as usual..nobody will tell me if anything happen until I make a call..
my mom suffer on..i don't know what type of illness..but it's make her mouth swell or something..pity her...
now...my tear running out...i really2 hate this situation...i don't want my beloved one suffer...i don't want...even a small suffer...i want them to be happy...enjoy their life...oh god...

my father is sick before...and that period make me like crazy...can't concentrate on anything...but thanks god he is ok now
but now...my mom sick..then i just can't accept this...she is the one that taking care of everyone when they was sick..she took care of my father...me...everyone...but i just think that who want to take care of her when she is sick right now...mom..i want to be there for you...i love you...i don't want to you to be alone...

i will be back home later...as soon as possible...damn i hate this situation..hate this feeling....may my mom will be ok...take care mom...love you

pelik la depa ne

slamat pagi dan gu morning,

ada sesetengah org mempersoalkan...blog tu utk apa? buat apa tulis blog? sound like they don't like keeping blog..well...tu masalah ko...bnda cmni xle nk dipersoalkan la..coz masing2 punya hal la..lantak la nk buat blog ke..diari ke...buku skrap ke..ko duli ape??...aishh...ter'emo la plak...

kadang2 org ni pelik..xhabis2 pelik...seolah-olah apa yg mereka buat tu smua betul..dan kalau ada org yg buat benda yg xsama or bertentangan dgn mereka dianggap salah...xpaham tul la...lantak la org lain nk buat apa pon..jgn sibuk bleh dak..janji dia xkaco hal ko..and xmenyusahkan org lain..and xlanggar norma masyarakat...contoh mcm...ntah le..pk arr sndiri...



emm...tp aku salute arr kt org yg xkisah apa org lain ckp tntang dia..but not for those yg terlalu xkisah smpai dia rasa smua dia buat tu betul..smpai xpeduli apa org ckp...like kalau kita buat bnda yg betul, means xperlu la kisah apa org lain ckp..coz bnda tu betul...lain plak kesnya dgn org yg konon2 konfiden smpai rasa dia dah betul and xnk kisah apa org ckp..moral of the story..klu org ckp bnda yg xbaik pasal kita tu...renung2 la dulu betul ke x...like 'aku ni menyusahkan org sekeliling ke, aku ni buat bnda xbaik ke.....' then kalau ya, improve la diri sndiri...kalau tidak..truskan ja hidup dgn aman dan bahagia (at here baru bleh guna quote--usah peduli apa yg org ckp) coz kita tau apa yg kita buat tu betul....

tu je la bnda yg nk merepek pg ne...tekanan tul my kunci bilik ntah ke mana ntah..terpaksa memanjat tingkap mcm tarzan plak nk masuk bilik...:P..whatever...

--quite long i leave my blog with no input...coz too many thing to be settle..lot of school work...tonne of problem to be think...and now everything seems smoothly flow...hope everything ok...^_^


i noticed dat so long i haven't feel happy..i mean the real happiness...the true, the natural one...like mostly it's fake...and yesterday i feel it..after i have finish one of the big school task for dis semester..and it's the biggest in the whole study period...well..it's give me much release...mind and soul..^_^

well...it's still a lot of task to be done...but i'm so glad that there are no much stress, tension in that..not much matter...thanks God..

here a story to share...about my friend..she's suffering for a kind of disease...sort of neorology thing..and undergo an operation on 8 february...it's yesterday..hope she's ok....
as my friends and i visit her at ward for 1st time..she seems weak..cannot move much..slow motion and hardly trying to talk...2nd day she seem ok..much better..and latest we visit her, a day before the operation...she can sit by her own..can eat and talk quite like normal..and we have told by her aunt dat she's get better bcos of our support to her..kinda FRIENDSHIP ENERGY dat we give her..make her bcome strong...stop being sad..stop crying..it's a miracle..from friendship..i guess..^_^

well then.. i have work to do...i have test tomorrow..just stopping by for awhile after lunch...ok then..snother story in da next post...c ya..:)