--quite long i leave my blog with no input...coz too many thing to be settle..lot of school work...tonne of problem to be think...and now everything seems smoothly flow...hope everything ok...^_^


i noticed dat so long i haven't feel happy..i mean the real happiness...the true, the natural one...like mostly it's fake...and yesterday i feel it..after i have finish one of the big school task for dis semester..and it's the biggest in the whole study period...well..it's give me much release...mind and soul..^_^

well...it's still a lot of task to be done...but i'm so glad that there are no much stress, tension in that..not much matter...thanks God..

here a story to share...about my friend..she's suffering for a kind of disease...sort of neorology thing..and undergo an operation on 8 february...it's yesterday..hope she's ok....
as my friends and i visit her at ward for 1st time..she seems weak..cannot move much..slow motion and hardly trying to talk...2nd day she seem ok..much better..and latest we visit her, a day before the operation...she can sit by her own..can eat and talk quite like normal..and we have told by her aunt dat she's get better bcos of our support to her..kinda FRIENDSHIP ENERGY dat we give her..make her bcome strong...stop being sad..stop crying..it's a miracle..from friendship..i guess..^_^

well then.. i have work to do...i have test tomorrow..just stopping by for awhile after lunch...ok then..snother story in da next post...c ya..:)

love U

1.50am -----14th January 2010

~~Back again~~

at this point, i feel a lot of trouble ..much more...humans are unpredict nowadays...sometime people act like they don't have logical mind to think...doing thing like don't care about others life..although they realize dat their action will give much negative change on others life.

human act weird---as seen in da news everyday..kinda murdering, cheating etc was very common..and much more weird as people around us---people we use to be with--doing shit..

i don't know they doing dis for what reason---but still--could you plz think about others~~moreover--it's change everything on others life--their hope, their ambition, their feeling, their love, their dream....everything--->>>for sure they are very very sick of it...

and from what was happen, i think i have to sacrifice something--my dream--my plan after study---have to be change...i have to help them...they must need me...

---> everyone have different life--and life shouldn't be compare as everyone through different things in life--some must be success---their life don't have much suffer..not much tragedy..not much weird..and they are free to plan and focus on their own life. On the other hand, some have to sacrifice--sacrifice their dream...benefits of their own life...to give others life---the one that need better life...responsibility is on me..i have to help them achieve their dream...mine is not important--as long as i can make u be a better human--try to make u not much suffer dis lost---don't think about human dat never think about u---be strong and i will walk with u through everything---i'm always here---LOVE U ALL SO MUCH---

Happy Birthday

23 december...its my birthday...

a night b4 my bday..i was watching a movie AVATAR..all i can say is It a very great creativity and graphic i ever watch..i say so coz i always can't stand for more than 2 hours movie b4..but AVATAR is different..i felt like throug the movie from starting till the end..much great..and just forgot about my bday then...

well, my birthday..thanks for all wishes and greeting..very appreciate it..coz at least some remember my birthday...

thanks a lot.

nothing special actually on dat day..my family just never remember the day..it's not an upset...it's normal for my family members..nothing special on bday..and normally, we used to not celebrate it...

bday party..mine is not more than 5 times till now..i remember the crazy one..actually twice i have been celebrated by friends.my 17th and my 20th..they do me fool on my bday..but according to them..this is the way dat will make me remember them as well..whatever friends..thanks so much..i appreciate your effort..its really work..i mean it's make me remember the day..remember the flour dat you throw on me..haha..and remember the friendship..precious!!

for dis coming 2010, i just hope dat everything will be ok..smooth flow..everything done on the right way..emm...as i try not to wish for somethings great coz it's just will make me stress..:P

and i realize that..my life..will not success on everything..i mean..i will get what i want..but not all..only some...and it's really happen..and dat was da reason why i try to keep at least 10% on me when i wish for somethings..never hope on anything for 100%..coz it's very hard to accept when its come to failure..*_#...so just keep some failure percentage in case ur not success...well dis is my way and maybe can be consider as advise..depend on what ur life through...coz we r different...rite..and everyone have right to say..but we don't have ability to make people trust or accept our words or way...so..it's depend...

actually, i always have things running on my mind everytimes..and cannot be put here everything..also lazy to type..:P

ok then, merry xmas and happy 2010...have a great year throughly and ever...:)

it just

finish exam..going home~~emm
then come back for doing research project~~
home again~~then start new semester~~~bla3
and--nothing interesting>>don't feel excited on those
well..just through

stuck

now..i got 2 more exam to go. but my mind still blur-blur coz just finish the latest exam yesterday. i think i need time to reset my mind before starting the new subject..

totally blur..can't concentrate on study..why...why??

many things come on my mind..i don't know..nonsense..

well, i have think to wite here but i'm too tired to figure the wordy out...plus i'm lazy now..feel like don't want to do anything rite now...huh..

............come on..i have exam to be sit..i have to study...study plzzzzzzz....................

~~music can help me i think---otak jam---

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