this again....

god..
my bad feeling come again..it's my mom...she is sick..
as usual..nobody will tell me if anything happen until I make a call..
my mom suffer on..i don't know what type of illness..but it's make her mouth swell or something..pity her...
now...my tear running out...i really2 hate this situation...i don't want my beloved one suffer...i don't want...even a small suffer...i want them to be happy...enjoy their life...oh god...

my father is sick before...and that period make me like crazy...can't concentrate on anything...but thanks god he is ok now
but now...my mom sick..then i just can't accept this...she is the one that taking care of everyone when they was sick..she took care of my father...me...everyone...but i just think that who want to take care of her when she is sick right now...mom..i want to be there for you...i love you...i don't want to you to be alone...

i will be back home later...as soon as possible...damn i hate this situation..hate this feeling....may my mom will be ok...take care mom...love you