i'm hurt again..a lot....

yesterday i just thought that i'm healing..but today...i'm hurt again...

i'm a person that outgoing..i like challenge..sport..kind of thing that load with a lot of

excitement...ya...that's what i like...

but..i always under control for doing everything in my life..although i'm 24th now..but still..i need to follow the rule ...huh..i'm sick of it..

through my life..i always trying to prove myself to everyone around me...i want to open their eye and let 'em see dat i can do many things, more than they expect to see. but every single thing that i do just goes wrong on their sight....ya..i told u..i'm always hurt... T_T

it's just like they set everything for u..plan everything for ur life..and u need to follow it for ur good. if u don't, u r bad...u can't do anything out of the frame....( but i'm always do dat)....or u take the risk..( well i always take the risk)...huh...yeah..u must be in the frame...

sometimes i just ignore everything around me..i just do what i want ( bcoz i know it's for good, and i never do bad things like gamble, vandalism, or whatever things that will destroy myself or others..) but..if the warning quotes always insert ur ears...its just like a big full stop for me..it's sad...

i don't know what to do and what to follow...i thought i grow up enough to think...but they always say i'm a kid..know nothing...and what i need to do is to follow the rule...OMG...i sick of it...i'm hurt..stress.... T_T..what should i do.....????

p/s no more tear to cry again...