Happy Birthday

23 december...its my birthday...

a night b4 my bday..i was watching a movie AVATAR..all i can say is It a very great creativity and graphic i ever watch..i say so coz i always can't stand for more than 2 hours movie b4..but AVATAR is different..i felt like throug the movie from starting till the end..much great..and just forgot about my bday then...

well, my birthday..thanks for all wishes and greeting..very appreciate it..coz at least some remember my birthday...

thanks a lot.

nothing special actually on dat day..my family just never remember the day..it's not an upset...it's normal for my family members..nothing special on bday..and normally, we used to not celebrate it...

bday party..mine is not more than 5 times till now..i remember the crazy one..actually twice i have been celebrated by friends.my 17th and my 20th..they do me fool on my bday..but according to them..this is the way dat will make me remember them as well..whatever friends..thanks so much..i appreciate your effort..its really work..i mean it's make me remember the day..remember the flour dat you throw on me..haha..and remember the friendship..precious!!

for dis coming 2010, i just hope dat everything will be ok..smooth flow..everything done on the right way..emm...as i try not to wish for somethings great coz it's just will make me stress..:P

and i realize that..my life..will not success on everything..i mean..i will get what i want..but not all..only some...and it's really happen..and dat was da reason why i try to keep at least 10% on me when i wish for somethings..never hope on anything for 100%..coz it's very hard to accept when its come to failure..*_#...so just keep some failure percentage in case ur not success...well dis is my way and maybe can be consider as advise..depend on what ur life through...coz we r different...rite..and everyone have right to say..but we don't have ability to make people trust or accept our words or way...so..it's depend...

actually, i always have things running on my mind everytimes..and cannot be put here everything..also lazy to type..:P

ok then, merry xmas and happy 2010...have a great year throughly and ever...:)

it just

finish exam..going home~~emm
then come back for doing research project~~
home again~~then start new semester~~~bla3
and--nothing interesting>>don't feel excited on those
well..just through

stuck

now..i got 2 more exam to go. but my mind still blur-blur coz just finish the latest exam yesterday. i think i need time to reset my mind before starting the new subject..

totally blur..can't concentrate on study..why...why??

many things come on my mind..i don't know..nonsense..

well, i have think to wite here but i'm too tired to figure the wordy out...plus i'm lazy now..feel like don't want to do anything rite now...huh..

............come on..i have exam to be sit..i have to study...study plzzzzzzz....................

~~music can help me i think---otak jam---

#__#

not happy

--unhappy---

later i got dis feeling back..yeah..got back...after it has been long time not thinking about it.

so far.. i have finish my second paper today..got another 4 to go..huh...it's all ok about exam

the thing is..why i feel unhappy..i'm totally blur about dis...sudden think of future..sudden lose control on tempered..sudden weird thing happen...i don't know..

now..i'm bored..tension..frustrated..and the most one is..become sensitive..yeah it's another 'come back' i got. i have been a very sensitive person since i was young..be a kid...maybe because i'm the youngest..like everyone to follow my mind...maybe my parents pay more attention on me..then i felt like i can get everything i want...but i wonder dat not the reasons....i'm sensitive because i'm through a tough kid life...it too secret to tell..i wanna keep it...and keep it alone..just me and me know this..emm...then i felt that actually there ae no one out there can help me through my life...really2 help...everyone....yeah i mean everyone..have their own life..and try not to mess up their life by others. so, it's better to learn to settle things alone...i have been learning to live alone..for a while....but then i always got into someone..maybe family, friends...to be taking care...

for family, yes...i really love them all...this is a human nature...normal one...sometimes i do think to make them happy by my own..but me alone cannot work it up...they must work too..

for friends,emm...thinking hard....i don't know how many friend in dis world really2 care about friend?? some might say i'm not a person that like to care about others...no..it's not true...

i'm am very caring...can do anything to persons that always care of me.....and i only show this very2 care attitude to the PERSON THAT ALWAYS CARE ME ONLY. i wonder that i will never find dat kind of person to be friend with..for normal friend....then i will be very normal too.. because it's hard to find the loyal one..hurt when sometimes we think dat the person is the best friend..and the person betray...i'm not angry maybe...just upset..huhu

well, dat normal i guess..thanks god cause at least i have people that always listen to me..although i always like to keep everything on my own...just don't want people to think about my problem..don't want people feel bad on me...don't want to disturb their life...let me keep every single thing on my own...until i find the one that i trust to say it off...!!_!!

exam--

Tommorow i got exam..my 1st paper for dis semester..

then..tonight gonna be spinning already..nervous..afraid..all dat feeling gloom me..

i try study..do revision..lecture notes...revision books...emm....a lot actually..

sometimes i thought dat dat must be enough to get some awesome result..but mostly it doesn't..

..sometime i trying to figure out the effective way to get good result smartly..but what i get is..nothing come easy in dis life..work smart and work hard is always together..none can stand alone..no any speacial poison..no miracle..nothing of dat magical stuffs to success. Victory is paid by very2 hard work...

maybe one see others success as a great thing and wanna get some..less will thing about the effort dat need to pay...sacrification maybe..

now..i can't concentrate on reading those notes..coz i feel like i gonna go for exam in a second...although i got dis night to do more revision..anything dat can be catch in...

---suddenly remember the quote---> success come from 1% talent and 99% effort...

i don't know how true the quote..but for me...it's depend on ourself...sometimes if there are no talent..also might get problem on doing thing..like people always say-->"i'm not suitable for dis job..i can't do dat job...i don't have luck on dis job...bla3....." easy example is a runner---if he don't have talent..just wish to win only by his effort...then it will give nothing...not even be choose by the coach...^_*

yes, effort is important...but without talent..the 100% can't be achieve....

whatever...dis only my mind say...no argument need...

^_^ ___gud luck for exam___ ^_^

we far

อยากให้เธอรู้สักอย่าง เราอยู่ห่างเกินไป

http://www.ethaimusic.com/groove-riders/glai-tao-derm.html

yesterday

---here about my feeling today---

suddenly i'm thinking of some one that ever hurt me..emm..
...i'm not blaming..it's all my fault..

i can do nothing...just remember about yesterday...day that never came back...never return...

well..today and yesterday are the same...me and you..still apart...

drop by hurt heart~~~~ ~_~

study

....time to reset my messy mind...

~~~wake up from dream..come back to reality~~~~

..and...

€€€---StuDy!!!----

cycling is best

>>>>it's a bright day<<<<

today i going for cycling around campus..this is my first time since I'm staying here..at my campus..haha

well..it was a nice atmosphere out there..around 5.30pm..cycling while breathing fresh air..and again...watching around...people going back from work..students waiting for bus..bla3..

~~~exercise is good~~~

..i love cycling because it's fun and free...

~~~~~love cycling~~~~~ ^_^

own way

~~I got class at 8am today..finished aroun 10am..then having a break at cafe~~

..suddenly it was raining..

sitting at the cafe, watching around while having breakfast..suddenly think about people around me. Everyone is having their meal while chatting with their friend, some are eating alone, some just buy some and eat while walking..emm...variety of people's act

all have their way of doing think...watching how people clothing...some are very stylo..some just wear T-shirt and jeans..some are dressing nicely...and so forth..

~~~the point is...everyone have their own style, own thought, own dream, personally got this 'own' at everyone..so it is not wrong if we follow own way on living life..as long as it is not harm others in any aspects~~~

life is nice if we know what we want and know our ability to do thing...live our dream life is everyone wish..happiness always come when we able to handle life and can do the must and the want

~^_^~

stronger

~~~exam fever rarely fell rite now~~

have 2 weeks to finish all classes, catch up the missing silibus, finishing some extra test (i guess) and to complete everything

no more time to enjoy..doh..no movie..no chit chat...bla3...

do da best..although a lot of problem appear now and then..things is uncontrol..wether i like it or not..that the only way i have..just complete them all...lol

p/s...dilemma..don't wanna think bout unnecessary thing..bluerkk...who care..

<>

^_#

Working

Several week I don't write anything in this blog..well, holiday + a ton of test + assignments + projects and all those messy-mind stuffs. Well, that a must to all student I guess. But sometimes I felt that buzy life is more precious because we can do many thing in our life. Me, don't prefer such a relaxing life...cause it is a waste of time..to relax sometimes is not good..make us forget about thing we have responsible to....

Enough to take a good rest 2 days a week with light work. Emm..nothing to say much coz have a lot of thing to do...

~~~~~~Work + rest + eat + sleep + music = precious life~~~~~

calling??

^_^......^_^.......^_^.......^_^.....^_^

tonite..emmm....just nice...bravy huh?? hahaha..:P

----i'm just doing thing that i never do before...huhu..quit hard but then i do it----

done

}}}}}}---tuesday--done---{{{{{{

lastly i have don't my tuesday..finishing 2 test..

tomorrow need to see my supervisor on final year project..i wish i could start it certainly after holiday..don't want to wait until running time..

----alright..today is alright then----

:::::::feel happy:::::::

666===but then need to know something from someone===999

>>>>>>>>>>i'm waiting<<<<<<<<<<<<

happy..

====test done====

```after finishing my test..felt very relife..lastly it was done````

now can feel more to holiday mode~~~~

>>>>lalalalalalaala<<<<

opss....some confusing huh..emm...let it..don't want to think much about #^!&#*.....

neway..happy holiday and selamat hari raya to all my friends....

^_% miss them so much especially :------those respective guys and ladies--- :P

...LadIes...

...GuYs...

positive liar

---i'm not lying myself..it's a way to be happy----

...some feeling is undiscribe...it's hard to answer: what is my feeling today?......

~~~~~then..just say it's a nice day..it's good today..i feel great today.bla..bla..bla..~~~~

=======although it's not much enjoyable======

>>life happiness is depend on one self<<<

************if you think you are happy, then it is!!**********

111----enjoy a happy life everyday ---1111

ddd====-------not liar------=====bbb

^_^ ----happy---happy---day----^_^

nice

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~it's cute~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

nothing special..

~~~`emm..today--14th sept 2009---nothing special huh'~~~

...just another sunday to be finished with some reading (got test again) and plenty of work on my desk...but not much serious on doing those things (playing facebook by..)...

another 4 days to a week of holiday...Selamat Hari Raya..to all Muslim out there...

..but we all still enjoy and celebrate together right, (although not together fasting) ?

eheh...1 malaysia...

actually i haven't plan thing for my holiday...just think about work that i have to do on my holiday....that the must...can't help..that why holiday is not much meaningful then...

however..it ok to stay at peaceful village for a while and enjoy a wonderful of 'kampung girl' life...much fun than living in town actually...

---hope everything will be ok.....tired on many thing already---

~~~p/s~~~can't wait going for movie before going back home~~~ngeh3---

>>>>nothing special today...coz my everyday is nice... da<<< ^_^

ok...

i'm ok at 12.13
---today is 12 sept 2009---

----i'm ok at 12.13---

~~~~~~~sunshine~~~~~~

.....smilE.....

>>>>>>>>^_^<<<<<<<<<

wonder

sometimes people choose to keep things inside their mind

afraid of telling??

afraid that people cannot accept things they tell??

sometimes people can just talk directly...mean straight to the point

but some cannot accept the direct word..have to be some symbolic word...

~~~~i'm the one that like to know the truth..things thad people think on their mind

it's better to tell..not to keep..

----plz----plz---i want to know your mind---

don't make me confuse

don't give hope if it is no way

don't try to keep me happy now..but later you 're gone

000000-----it---make---me----wonder-----00000

holiday??

--starting a new friday--~~~bout' a week to a week the holiday~~~

===already in holiday mood?

...no..no..plz..got test on tuesday===

>>>>come on<<<<<

one song (old song actually) suitable for time like this:-

Holiday by Green Day

www.youtube.com/watch?v=My44xzC6Udo

lyric+music=best!! :P

shopping!!!

~~~just back from shopping at queensbay mall~~~

--tHose what I gOt--

===moon Cake--lotus + 1 yolk = RM 11.70 sebiJik===

~~sempeNa pesTa kuIh bUlan (waLauPun xberKaitan dgN hiDup gUa)~

===gReen anTic eaRing = RM3.90==

~~beLi seBab nmpK canTik'''kaLer hiJau la KataKAn~~~

===saNdal fRom sTep = RM 29.90===
~~beLi coZ seLesa diPakai (aLasaN#$%^%) & mY faV sanDAl da Ilang~~~

===jeng3''''''ni penCil caSe toMEl = RM10.70===

~~~daH laMA mengiDam nK beLI'''jeLEs tgk ank sdaRA Gua paKAi~~~

***keselUruhan penGhabisaN duIt
= RM56.40

xtermasUk maKan+minum+minyak moto***

^_^dan haSilnya gUa sgt happY dgn brg2 yG gUA dpt ari Ni^_^

mood2

kadang-kadang mood berubah

^_^~~~ok

^_*~~~~mate lebam

^_+~~~study

^_$~~~~~~~jimat2...duit pokai

^_#~~~serabut

@_^ ~~~~ whatever

^_^~~~~~happy semula

~~~~~it would be fine if i have you to lay on shoulder~~~~

fight as an eggs!!

~~~come on!!~~~

let begin the day with knowledge

aja..aja..fighting

study for the next test

no more messy...messy mind

---fight---fight---fight----

test again...

today i got test..huh..just write what i can think on that time...no time to study...cause a lot of thing go around in my mind...cannot concentrate anymore...

hopefully everything will be fine soon, and i can think more about my study then...

go 2 test on tuesday...have to start study asap....da~~~ ^_*

lastly,....

''''''yesterday my father undergo operation. something about bone problem... and the operation are succesfully done by 4pm; that time all of my family members are all together waiting for my father outside the operation theatre, from 12.30 until 4pm. I'm a bit worry because anaesthesiologist say my father got some infection in his lung, so it may cause problem during the operation. But soon he is all well. Now he's at home already..able to take a walk also...such a quick releasing. Anyway, I'm very thankful to God that give me and my family a chance to take care of my father again. Hopefully he will fully release from his pain an happy..happy... ^_^'''''''

home sweet home

sleepy day

got to chase the bus but then wake up quit late

rushing2 take bath and go home

~~~~adios~~~

holiday of not holiday

weekends plan

---studying for next test on wednesday---

have to go home coz my father go for operation on tuesday

===hope he's fine after the operation===

have to skip class on tuesday due to father's

^_^~~~~~~love dad~~~~~~^_^

waiting...

~~~waiting for class

waiting for call~~~

~~~~~~~~waiting for msg

waiting for eating~~~~

~~~~waiting for hoLidaY...

...miss...miss...

all 'bout me

===finally find the solution===

-----although it is late, but i just want to keep trying-----

~~~~i still believe in luck and miracle~~~

>>>go...go...again<<<

***strive for excellent***

huh...

===i'm studying===

---'messy u 'by Black Vanilla---

http://www.enjoythaimusic.com/lyrics/a_0729.php

frustated

-----frustated-----

====don't like====

~~~~confuse~~~~

----why??----

===don't understand===

~~~nobody help~~~

*_*......it's frustated...*_*

test

---got test at 8am---

---try to study hence very sleepy---

---so, listening some nice song---

^_^===เหงาๆ @ lonesome===by Bebe=== ^_^

song

http://www.enjoythaimusic.com/lyrics/a_0442.php

lyric & translation

http://www.ethaimusic.com/bebe/ngao-ngao.html

~~~go...go...chAiyok~~~

let's get start

----after 3 days holiday, weekends + 1 public holiday, then time to get start with a lot of task as a student...ngeh3------

===well...just trying to enjoy another season of studying...got about 2 month to finish this semester...then come to the last semester for my degree...chaiyok2...fuh2...=====

^_^-----neway...gud luk to me..hehe----^_^

my lonely season ---Flure

^_^===my forever song===^_^

song by Flure - my lonely season

----thai song ----- here the lyric, song and translation --- enjoy----

http://www.ethaimusic.com/flure/reu-doo-tee-chun-ngao.html

boring again...

today such a boring day lorr..

neway..today is independence day.. appreciating the independence we have..

miss home aledy...a bit regret not going home...

stay here not study anymore... :(

will u marry me

damn dis song very touching...

will you marry me - Pup Potato ft. Lula

http://www.enjoythaimusic.com/lyrics6/a_1303.php

-thai songs-

gud MornInk

cuRreNtlY liSTenIng to ThiS sOng



รักเธอไปทุกวัน - by Potato



http://www.listen2thaimusic.com/lyrics6/a_0993.php



คิดถึง...อยากเจอเธอ - by Mardi



http://www.enjoythaimusic.com/lyrics/a_0422.php

boRed...

toDay is RainY daY..wiThouT fOOD..a Lot oF wOrk..nO sLeep...huAAA...so SuffEr...

miSS hOme...miSS mOm..miSS dad...Miss.....

just enJOy soME olD song...

http://www.enjoythaimusic.com/lyrics/a_0118.php

loso - miss call

try this song..enjoy new language..new music...its a thai music

http://www.listen2thaimusic.com/lyrics6/a_1252.php